Year 5986

28th Elul 5986/Thursday @Mandaue Office Here and Now: No more period Drove to work early because I woke up 5:11AM got ready, put the twins to do their potty, watered the plants and by 6:22AM I left the house. Last night I was really addicted to Poisoned by his love drama because of the intensity and the way the man  recognized purity in the woman and loved her even though he was a notorious gangster. I will just finish that story and not ever watch dramas again. It was the last thing I watched last night and I woke up asking GOD to purify my thoughts about it because it was sexually provocative but they were married so they didn't do anything wrong. The guy reminded me of JESUS because he was titled the mafia king, but JESUS is the KING OF KINGS... and I just fantasized that HE loved me like the mafia king loved the virgin bride and I kept hearing the line from the wisest king who told the shulamite "You have ravished my heart, my sister my bride..." How do i ravish YOUR ...

27 Elul 5986/Wednesday Event: My 45th year 2nd day period and Meeting day Here and Now: I dreamt of many strange things last night, loving and being loved by our class genius in highschool Andrew Luy, and then the next were other guys, some geek and then I think I saw Nico, and then just being loved by ordinary men in Cebu. What struck me was Andrew, Andrew was an intelligent composed man, I didn't know I was attracted to his intelligence until today, but I was never attracted to him per say, that's why to see him in my dreams is quite a surprise but I can't do anything about it because he is married. I was praying to GOD last night, seeking HIS comfort and love when I fell asleep no dinner, no bath, just sleeping so early at 8pm. And I do feel rested. I don't think that dream was divinely inspired, I just think my dream revealed the kind of person I would love - somebody intelligent like Mosab and if he was in Cebu probably like Andrew, but not Stephen, because I...

26 Elul 5986/ @Mandaue Warehouse Here and Now: Driving to work, I felt the longing for covenant love that GOD has promised me as I kept hearing worship songs, I always feel GOD is trying to sustain me as the seasons pass by me without a love to call my own. GOD has made me broken and lacking, but HE is also my Shepherd, which means I have everything because HE is my Shalom, nothing missing nothing broken... my parents health are great, my dogs are healthy too, my entire family is okay, and I am waiting still for the Promise of GOD to be fulfilled. The longing makes me sad, it burns within me, but what more can I do but stay faithful to HIM who is true. SOAP Torah Reading:  Deuteronomy 32 13 He made them ride on the heights of the earth. They ate the produce of the fields. He had them suck honey from the rocks and olive oil from the crags, 14 curds from the cows and milk from the sheep, with lamb fat, rams from Bashan and goats, with the finest wheat flour; and you drank sparkling ...

@Mandaue  Watchtower 25 Elul 5986/Monday Work day Here and Now: Came to the Office late because I was still talking to David and Kim about church matters and was able to cry out the heavy burdens out of them from my chest. Now reading GODs word regarding HIS promise for me. SOAP Torah Readings: Ha'azinu: Deuteronomy 32:1-12 10 “He found him in a desert land And in the wasteland, a howling wilderness; He encircled him, He instructed him, He kept him as the [ d ]apple of His eye. 11 As an eagle stirs up its nest, Hovers over its young, Spreading out its wings, taking them up, Carrying them on its wings, 12 So the Lord alone led him, And there was no foreign god with him. Bible in A year: Micah 3-5, Ephesians 5 Micah 3 8 But truly I am full of power by the Spirit of the Lord, And of justice and might, To declare to Jacob his transgression And to Israel his sin. 9 Now hear this, You heads of the house of Jacob And rulers of the house of Isra...

 24 Elul 5986 Sunday @Crimson house Here and Now: I woke up so early because GOD awakened me to pray at around 2AM to 4AM and this has been my prayer watch and I was able to worship GOD and groan in my prayers for everything that HE had brought to my concern, the church, my family, the workplace and my future family with my husband. I praise GOD for making me HIS watchman but I also feel burdensome but I am still grateful for the peace and quiet I have in my home alone in Crimson and grateful today for the fellowship I will have with my family. I was also grateful for the fellowship I had with my neighbors yesterday since I don't see them all the time. I am grateful for the prophetic words and prophecies and I pray that I will indeed prepare and do whatever GOD wants me to do to prepare for the end times that is coming. I asked the LORD last night, and I don't know why I asked when I don't want to ask about it anymore but it's the question I always ask GOD if I were to ...

23 Elul 5986/ Saturday Rest Shabbat Shalom!!! Today's Shabbat Parasha is called Standing to Go and enter the Land of PROMISE Here and now: I have been contemplating to go to office today but my Spirit says to rest, still my mind is racing towards monitoring workers in the office that I do not find useful. I could not rest while they are still there but I am indeed forcing myself to rest today in obedience to the command of GOD written in the 10 Commandments to observe the shabbat as the 7th day of Rest even though the Philippines governance ruled by catholic faith changed the 7th day of rest to 1st day which was a Sunday, my heart wants to follow the WORD of GOD in THE BIBLE. Still I am making sure the workers are monitored in Marides this morning with a work output expected of them. SOAP Torah Shabbat Reading: NITZAVIM (You are Standing) / Vayelech (And He Went)Deuteronomy 29:9(10)–31:30, Isaiah 61:10–63:9, Luke 24:1–12 / Luke 24:13–43 Deuteronomy 30 (RY: iv, LY: vii) 15 “Look! I...